i'm having one of my sleepless night albeit being really tired aft sitting at a dinner which took 5 hours=/ i cant stand this kinda thing but it's a charity dinner so it isn't that bad i guess
match against RP was a good game for most of the team i guess. i din have to do much, that everytime the ball came i felt very raw. my heart really went out to the RP gk, the way she handled pq's balls, the corners was impressive. the spirit itself is alr highly commendable. yet for me, i was extremely scared today, even more so today because the ball hardly came and everytime it came i could feel my heart pounding like a jack-hammer. when the ball came during the corner kick, everytime was going for it, but i stood there, comtemplating on sticking my hand out. when i wanted to punt, i comtemplated, and the longer i comtemplated, the more worried i got. i shldn think too much aft all, it's really the usual stuff i do and there shldn be any cause of worry for me.
i'm working hard for myself, for those people who earnestly believe in me. i can't wait for sch to start, basically to gain back my self-esteeem, and regain my source of distraction from all the really demoralising thoughts. i so wna get that o-i'm-so-busy-that-i-dont-have-time-to-think feeling. then again i wont forget what mr shi and mr boy has always reminded me amidst the really hectic life i enjoy.